I cant say i was satisfied at all with the result of my project, its hilarious to me now that i thought i was going to learn music theory, learn a song on drums and be a better song writer on top of it all. But saying that i have never been more disciplined and efficient with my work in my life which is something in its own. 4 weeks before the showcase was me waking up at 7am learning little wing and singing grace and then going to bed at 10, not seeing friends or family either. Just nothing. I even stopped drinking cups of teas in the morning because i felt they took too long.. At 1st i learnt 20% of little wing in 1 day so i left it and pushed it aside thinking it would be ok, i got back to it 2 weeks after was only learning 4 bars a day and barely being able to play them and having to keep re learning parts i just did. That brought me to the point of either forgetting the song completely or sacrificing everything for that piece which was one of those songs to me that changed my understanding of how a guitar could sing and wanted to understand how it was done. So i chose to do the song (clearly). I cant say i feel i did the wrong thing and cant say i did the right as i was quite literally 1 day away from it being how i wanted it but i think. I look it as that life just isn’t always fair and i move on. Ive written this to show and explain the lack of progress videos and to show i wasn’t slacking but in fact dedicating everything for that piece of music and i cannot express that this was the most challenging thing i’ve ever done but that just makes me happy that i capable of such hard work and i’m able to be so dedicated. I did really enjoy practicing singing though, not so much little wing aha. Doing the crimson stuff was fun although being in crimson has prominently made me never want to join any average band ever again, its just not worth the stress to me but i definitely had a good laugh with the band which is good.
I think next time i wont be doing something so hard just because it was so hard and depressing and yeah it was quite a mental task. And next time i’m really going to check how hard something is really early on so i don’t do something like this to myself again. Also i need to make sure i don’t strain my voice as on the day of the gig my voice was broken and by the actual performance came around it was almost fully gone so i really need to be weary about things like that and keeping care of my voice and noticing when Im pushing too far.
Overall i did sort of enjoy the project but I’m jut annoyed about the broken voice on the day of the gig and then not being able to do little wing. Although my voice has defintely gotten way better so thats a win from me.