For my final performance I performed Love yourself by Justin Bieber and Creep by Radiohead. Both of these songs I knew off by heart so recording for the Christmas Live wire and showing my music online an audience online gave me more confidence than I had in the previous show back in October. I feel like with the short amount time that we had to practice and complete this video I did extremely well with adapting to how fast paced performing and producing the video actually was I feel like I have really gotten better at making the best of the situations I’m put under, and I’m able problem solve with my year effectively, especially when restrictions stopped us from hosting the event within College.
Performing after another person instantaneously felt very stressful. I wish I had come more prepared for that day because I felt like I was thrown into it and I didn’t give myself time to prepare getting on stage. Things happened so fast the cameras were on, the video was rolling, and I had to do the best with the one take that I had. Only being abbe to perform once made me feel a bit nervous because of everything going so quickly. I felt like if I messed up then people would notice it on the Live stream. I feel like I am always going to need to work on my confidence as an artist, and I need to stop thinking so much about the camera placed in front of me, and just focus on giving a good performance for my audience.
Performing creep for the second time I had a lot more faith in my Tutor. Performing Creep is one of my favorite songs that I’ve had a lot o practice with, so I felt like I was naturally able to sing it very well and be more confident that I wouldn’t make mistakes. I feel like and artist being able to believe in themselves makes all the difference to their performance, Many people said I look confident onstage, and I think that is because of the confidence I had in the song, and the belief that I knew I could sing this song, and I would sound amazing doing it. Bringing up my self esteem isn’t going to be something I recognize then never mention again. its going to come up in every project one way or another, because I as an artist am always improving, in terms of music, and in terms of myself.
Performing Love yourself was a song which I also had a lot of confidence in. It is a song that I have known for many years and have performed in previous performances. I felt like I did really well my stage presence and suppressing my anxiety, and using my emotions and music, to create my own kind of presence to stage that had an invisible audience. Even though there was no physical audience sat there watching me, I still feel nervous whenever I sing especially in front of a camera. I did great with controlling my voice and and putting on a great performance where the audience could see my talents and people could enjoy what I had to offer. I am continuing to improve on my personal performance style as an artist, being able to adapt songs in a way that only I can sing them, and adapting Love yourself and Creep has made them into some of my favorite songs to sing for people.
Performing Feed the world was probably my weakest performance out of all three/ I feel like performing the song was a very difficult because I was not only new to the song, but I was also so unable to to adapt to singing with many people singing only a few lines at a time. The way the other singers would sing the song would confuse me, and I would try to match the way they sung it, but I couldn’t and I would lose confidence when my part would come. I felt very at home with everybody stage, and It just made the whole song less scary in the end. As much as I loved the authenticity of the performance, I felt like we could have been more prepared and took another take just because I don’t believe most of my year was aware that it was only going to be one take especially myself since I kept looking back at the people behind me and not at the camera, which is a classic mistake when you’re performing to an audience.
Overall, I think everyone did extremely well, we got an incredibly supporting audience, and lots of great responses and feedback, and we were able to deliver something I think everybody enjoyed creating. I am very proud of everyone and myself with all the work we had put in this year and I think I have improved immensely since the start of the year. I feel like my last project is gonna be the real test, and I can’t have anything holding me back, so I have to practice and work harder, improve my attendance and produce quality work I know I’ll be proud of, But overall, I am proud of myself this year.